Attempt

It was dark
and darker it went
and shades of life
came in slides
it raised curtains
stains and soaps it gave
still
it hasn't end


I am waiting
for life
to close its chapter
but the lessons
seems
are still pending


One more attempt
to take my life
ended in
life's one more chance
to wake me up
for new tomorrow


What shall it bring
for I have lost
all hopes
I am living
yet inside
a part of me
has lost its soul


I will live
perhaps to die again
and I shall win 
one day
I will quit this game


All attempts then
shall prove futile
but till then
hope I fight


But for now
this pain shall remind
of the deeper scar
that pierced me
mercilessly
and life
who kept me alive
strangely

Whose attempt shall
prove fruitful
that remains
a mystery

PS : So, if you have read this poem kudos, for this was nothing more than a rambling. Trying to get back my thoughts. You see, a failed suicide attempt yesterday, so obviously my mind is yet to get back to this world. No comfort, no words of solace please. I am alive, and if you are caring enough to know how I am, the wound shall heal. So thanks.